I began to read The Stranger for the third time

because I think it's a fantastic book

but it starts off with him at the funeral home

because his mother just died

and I started running through my head the events

that occurred during the hospital stay

and how I was trying to fall asleep on the big chair next

to the hospital bed

but every few seconds I'd think of something that

I'd never get to do with my dad again

or something I'd never be able to tell him about

and I'd moan like a crazy person

and I really want to tell someone else the whole story again