How does anyone know what they want?

"want."

Why do I persistently do this to myself.

Maybe it's not in my control at all.

You probably don't realize how

much the little tiny things you

do impact my life.

Everybody.

There have recently been short bursts of time

that made me actually enjoy my life

and feel like things are how they should have been

for years.

I love my housemates and this house

and hanging out with some of my newer friends a lot

and all the parties of the past month.

And I kind of realized how unhappy I always am.

This Winter Break GOALS!

Goals for winter break (or at least things I'd really like to do even if likely impossible)

Go see Chelsea galleries at least twice, hopefully bringing friends
Go to Brooklyn and visit all the friends I have that live there at least once
Go to Arizona/Colorado? (I probably can't afford it)
Come up to Purchase and paint a lot (if I don't have a job)
Have parties at my house in Purchase with friends from home
Meet with potential drummer and get this band thing going
MAKE MONEY? that'd be nice
Go ice skating with my sick new free ice skates
Go sledding, a thousand times