There are 20 remaining days for me to live in this house and do the things I've been doing every day since May 15th.

I can't say I've been doing much since then.

It's been a pretty uneventful and unfriendly summer compared to previous ones.

I feel that so many people my age are being so much more adventurous,

touring with their band around the country,

spending a month or so in another state,

hanging out in the city,

being with friends every day.

Not me.

To go back to Purchase, in many ways, sounds good to me.

I want to be told to paint, I want to be around other artists 24/7,

and thousands of people. Not like here, where there's my mom,

and just a few friends.

But there's so much security in this house, I've been here since birth.

And Dan?

The last time I have spent more than 24 hours without seeing him was May 08 for 2 days.

We've spent every single day with each other for the past 2 years essentially.

This just isn't going to be okay for me.